Have you replaced the ritual yet? I get a similar feeling as to what you describe, doing something with my hands, when I make loose leaf tea. It’s great for mindfulness.
Bigotry thrives on ignorance. By coming out and speaking up, people are actively challenging a status quo that enables such ignorance.
You’ll sometimes notice this when a homophonic parent has to confront their own child coming out instead of just a bogeyman ‘other’. Not always, but occasionally, they’ll actually rethink their ingrained biases.
How did you get multiple 64 GB RAM sticks that would’ve been ewaste?