keepcarrot [she/her]

I found I couldn’t do it. I have a set of traumas that means I go into a weird fugue state where I massively undercharge by an order of magnitude and take on every liability. I think it’s some sort of rejection dissociation thingy, or like just trying to end the situation as quickly as possible. This meant I had made very little money and promised a lot, and also came to hate my hobby.

Now that I have a job, the stakes are much lower, I get regular pay, and I also pretty much never have to negotiate directly with clients.

It took a really long time to get that job though, given that job searching also requires skills I do not have

I remember for quite a while, the only thing keeping me going was spite. The worst people in the country wanted me dead (or at least starving in the street), so I had to keep hanging on or they’d win

I’m not entirely sure what it means enough to give a summary.

The first usage that pops into my mind is when someone has said a silly joke regarding your situation and you want to acknowledge the joke but also move on quickly.

Second usage is someone has suggested something, you want to say you understand but you have a different opinion.

thonk

“Yeah nah” - Australian proverb

Catfish

“Don’t delete this, might need it later - JP”

Base building?

I honestly don’t know what you’re talking about. Do you think that a random party guy in Siberia can just say “Nope, the USSR cannot get any oil now” and nothing would be done and he’d be showered in women and coke? Or… Yeah, what the fuck are you talking about?

Politicians were paid around the middle of the income scale in the Soviet Union.

Unless you’re talking about like the occasional free beer or taxi ride for competently administering your job, which I gotta tell you, however much you think Communist party members did it… Like, have you had a job and talked to your boss and their inter-business negotiations? Holy shit

I wish I had more time :(

Rocks are dialectical when they bash against one another, just as I bash my head against every other leftist.

I think like… Rocks aren’t political, until communities of humans arrive and start talking about rocks and using language to describe rocks. A rock that humans have never interacted with isn’t political, until people start using it as an example of what is and isn’t political. Sort of like quantum but for concepts and relationships being perceived by communities of people.

Why did I write this?

Yeah, I think that’s how it works

I eat out or uber eat if I’m too exhausted to do cooking from work. Or if I tried to do a bulk cook and by day 2 of eating it my brain just says no. Apparently I will just starve instead of eating the same thing

He’s a reason, but not a total one by any stretch

I would just give them the username and password of my account, then they can enjoy tomb raider 3 or something.

This feels like Napoleon’s soldiers and the mamluks, or what was said about them.

Or something. Above a project of certain size, divisions of labour and stuff make the project complete faster, but before that it seems like a lot of extra busy work that slow down the project

Urgh, kei trucks are just as expensive as Ute’s here

I am aghast at how difficult interviews are compared to literally every aspect of most jobs I’ve had.

One could, indeed, argue that consulting firms make their bread and butter by not having things work but fixed temporarily.