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Cake day: October 19th, 2023

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  • I guess I lucked out, my childhood was pretty ideal. My parents were pretty well off, we had a nice house away from the suburbs in a more wooded area, with a creek on both sides and fields with wild horses and lots of huge oak trees to climb.

    It was such a beautiful area that I could explore and play in it all day long - it was just great. I don’t think kids get that much of a rural experience anymore, the place has since been overdeveloped and it doesn’t have any fields or open spaces anymore.



  • I’n not sure I believe in reincarnation for many reasons, not the least of which is since we don’t retain consciousness of our past lives, there’s no way to actually improve over the life you supposedly lived over and over again previously.

    Yet as a kid I had these wild dreams of things I hadn’t yet any knowledge about, such as certain heiroglyphic texts I encountered which I later learned were actually genuine artifacts in the real world, and the dreams I always had of walking by hot river at night, nearly naked, with palm trees bent by the hot winds - night after night, the same dream.

    It might not be past lives at all, but some stream of collective consciousness that exists inside all of us at some cellular level, or memories that exist in the collective environment we all share.



  • Hmmm the keytar, eh? I’d like to try that sometime. I remember someone saying, you never really get to make the art you set out to make; there’s always a struggle between your idea and the medium you’re working in. With painters, for example, you have an idea but the canvas and paint have their own behaviors and what you end up is never exactly what you had in mind.

    Your post just reminded me of that. With us musicians, it’s the fight between what we want to make with music, and the instrument itself; a piano is a beast with teeth you have to approach from the side, before it decides it’s going to eat you alive.


  • Exactly. And some people view every post as some kind of assault on their own views or values. It makes me reluctant to post anything that may be quite radical or a unique take on something, because no matter my intentions, someone takes umbridge at it (and they really shouldn’t, we need the wood).

    Anyway - I don’t mean to step on anyone’s sacred cow when I post things, I’m just trying to bring a new slant or point of view most of the time. I’m fine with someone saying “I disagree, and here’s why.” I’m not fine with people saying, “I disagree because you’re a stupid idiot.”


  • Well - good point. I see myself as an asshole most of the time too. And I am. I don’t deny I’m selfish and self-centered, but I do try to subjugate those things when I’m around others. Most people see me as a quiet, wallflower type of person - they don’t know the real asshole within. Sort of the Bigfoot of all Assholes in some situations.








  • I’ve been trying to learn the piano for over 50 years. And I get why someone would ask “Why.” Because you cannot ever really master it.

    I have had some transactional benefit, I’ve played for weddings at $25 an hour and such, but it’s not the reason I pursue it. It challenges my brain and fingers in ways that can be very frustration but sometimes has very sublime results.




  • Hee hee. I feel like the one being sealioned most of the time. It doesn’t matter what I say, “I should like to have a reasonable debate about what you said. What proof do you have that this has ever happened, and if you don’t say something I like I’ll be back again to hound you about it until you validate me in a way that I sorely need.”



  • Wow that really stings because it’s true. I don’t think I forgive people, but I do scan the obits to see if they’re dead yet. Then I yell, “Look who’s still standing, bitch!” And then I feel good because I’m a selfish prick anyway - and I’m all about forgiving myself for that.